Been thinking way too much, feeling too much emotions ... Everything seems so messed up ... I wanted to rely on someone badly ... Just to gety away from my problems for a little while ... Perhaps maybe, out of this depressing period, there would be tat someone who would bring me happiness and be my shelter ... There is too much mixed feeling ... Stuff tat I dun understand ... Stuff tat I want to do yet cannot do ... Stuff tat I wish to do yet do not wish to do ... Too much thoughts, too much contradiction ... I am confused ... Which way should I go? where would it lead me to? Will I end up in the place I dread most ? Or am I just running in circles ? Too much stuff in my head ... It just kept going on and on ... Stuff which can't even be pit into words ... Stuff tat bothers me so much ... I dun even know wat to say or where to begin with ... I seem to be like an expert solving ppl problems ... But when it comes to my problem, I can't do a Thing about it ... This suxs... Some is I know what I need to do ... But I can't do it ... Some is I totally have no clue on how to go about handling it ... I am in a dilemma ... A huge pinch ... Problems just comes one follow by the another and somehow, I feel myself buried under all these ... Oh god, save me!
Sometime u put a wall up not to keep people out but to find out who cares enough to break it down.
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Thursday, August 5, 2010
ARGH! it's so bpred at home ... and i am so sick!!! does anyone have any super effective medicine that will help me get better by tomolo ? i dun wanna go to YOG rehearsal with a sore throat ... i wanna scream, shout, play and get high! hahahahahahaha ... so looking forward to it ... or maybe just looking forward to the day where i could just get out of my house to play ... and den because i am suppose to get well better by tomolo, i have to be in the bed whole dar =( cannot play ... if not tomolo mama is not gonna allow me to go for the YOG rehearsal de ... until now den can play because she went for some taiji dinner celebration at malaysia ... she will be home late ^^ I AM HUNGRY! lol ... random ... my house dun really have good food =( looking forward to BBQ on sunday!!! (my bestie house warming) yayayayayay!!! haha ... so to my throat, please get well by tonite XD
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Friday, July 30, 2010
today came home at 6plus cause accompany yiling to wait for cheerleading ... played some games together with ts, ken and yiling ... haha ... super funny seeing them do all the action ... haha ... tat was fun! thian soon you still owe us a forfeit ok! LOL! dun try to run! haha ... i am so looking forward to the cruise trip!!! but den must pass the exam period den can go ... sianz!!! after reaching home, bath and watch movie, read comic, listen song den eat rum and raisins ice cream! super enjoy life can!!! haha ... and den noe while i am typing this blog, i am like going gaga over jacob and zac effron!!! and guess wat... i got my computer a zac effron wallpaper! ahhhh! ♥♥♥ i can so sit down, stone and totally melt infront of my computer =D
sneek a peek at me~♥
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Thursday, July 29, 2010
如果有一天我说我想要自己一个人静一静，你会做些什么？
如果有一天我说我累了，你是否会有所行动？
如果有一天我不再主动，你是否会自动？
如果有一天我不在等候，你是不是会伤心？
如果有一天我说我要离开，你是否会挽留我？
我所想要的对你而言太难。你所做的对我而言难以接受。
我在很努力地学会接受，也会慢慢去学会不去依赖你，也尝试着去接受你那独来独往的个性，也会以你在爱情里所能做和不能做的事情做调整。随即应变我再行。但愿我的变化能够让我们的爱情继续，到我再也无法坚持为止。
drowning myself with music and being oblivious to the world.
if i had you, life would be a party, it'd be ecstasy!
how i wish.
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sneek a peek at me~♥