i wanted a few days of rest but mummy keep scolding and nagging and dun let me rest =( few days of rest cannot meh ... can't u see wat i am going through ? this is so tiring ... seriously tiring ... enough of fights, enough of quarrels ... i just wan some time on my own, doing things that will lift my sprints up a little ... can't i ? nobody understands ... of course ... i choose to keep it to myself ... why? it seems easier that way... ppl judge when they themselves do the same thing... they dun see their own faults ... they only criticize others ... we are all humans ... it's our nature ... so hold ur tongue, shut ur mouth. that's all i ask for... i do not expect comfort or condolence nor empathy ... just ... let me be.
help me lift this stone off my chest
so that i could breathe again
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Sunday, May 27, 2012
back to work... routine life ... Zzz ... maybe i should take like a one week off to myself so that i can rest before the hectic mango work starts ... but if i calculate the opportunity cost, it's kinda not worth it ... it is like i could have get that amount of money if i work but i would sacrifice my play time =( argh ...
oh and there is kinda some movies that i wanted to watch recently ...like man in black 3, dark shadows... and den there would be coming soon movies that i would like to watch ...me wan watch rise of the guardian, ted, snow white and the huntsman and so much more ... but then i always is either dun have enough money or dun have enough time ... and recently i have to save plus i have an increase in expenditure cause of bunny ... i guess next time i should include a pic of bunny in his new "home". his home cause $270+ ... expensive condo ... tsk tsk tsk...
let me have peace
tranquillity
serenity
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Saturday, May 26, 2012
hahaha ... I LOVE WEEKENDS! WOOHOO!!! at least i get to play games and do the things i wanted ... destress myself from the never ending work load =D ok so about that bunny that i blogged about previously, my friend and me decided to adopt it and today it recieved his new home (by the way it is a male bunny) and it is healing well, jumping all about ... it is good that he is all well already but he start to display his temper! that spoilt brat! hahahaha ... but it is fun ... just as long as he dun bite... so recently i am pilling myself with work to stop myself from thinking random stuff ... therefore, i am holding two jobs ... on top of my current on, i am going to work at mango ... yes... again ... this time, confirm damn tired ... muahahahaha ... but den i get to have my money and get to pursue my dreams =D
u said u will tell me once u r out
today had passed
where are you?
u told me there would be a maybe
but from wat i see it's the end that would be.
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Thursday, May 17, 2012
ok ... so now it is about 4.30am and i am not asleep yet ... lol ... wat's new ... every single time i told myself that i will sleep early it will only results in me waking up the next morning and wondering why i didn't sleep early the previous night ... now my body clock is screwed ... probably gonna take off tomolo ... confirm damn tired until cannot work de ... and den my mum will scold me ... haiz ... she wan me to take 2 jobs at the time time like wat i did last time ... hahha ... easier said than done... recently i have been too bored that i started thinking of random questions ... (i know i am always random) example: i noticed that the ant in my office moves slower than those at my home (i wonder what i fed them with) office ants attracts to my food while home ant attracts to my plain water (because they run around too much ?) lol... who will notice such stuff ... seriously ...
just now my friend, cq, spotted an abandon rabbit near my estate ... it was just placed in a grocery trolley (those kind that aunties go market with) with food and newspaper as bedding ... so we called up our friends to see if anyone would adopt it ... but to no avail... in the end we called the SPCA (i know it's kinda weird to call SPCA for abandon rabbits but the rabbit is so big and we can't just leave it in the lurch )and they told us to call in the morning again ... i changed the rabbit's bedding and it's now at cq's house ... she's heading overseas and so i am suppose to settle it ... i dun really know if they will come and wat is procedure like ... kinda scared ... but no one else would accompany me =( oh well we will see how things goes tomolo den ... for now, i need to force myself to get into lala land (by hook or by crook ) =D
feeling kinda lost...
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Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Today is a very very stressful day for me at work ... need to do the payments and there is a really long and complicated process to it ... not to mention that the relevant documents are all all over the place ... like how would i know wat is wat and where do i go and search for it ... it's like looking for a needle in a haystack ... haiz ... and i still have to clear up after the previous person's work and there is a lot of misstakes found ... one lost Delivery Order will cause me to search through the entire office ... and that will easily cause me a few hours of my time ... so tiring ... i also have to issue cheques ... those of you who know me well will know that i am so bad with number ... press calculator = press 5 times, 5 different answer will come out ... it's like so sososososo fustrating ... ARGH!!! plus i amt so busy that i for got to eat... last meal is at 11am ... hahahahha ... now eat wat puke wat ... haiz ... need to take more care if not my whole chain of gastric problems will come to visit me once more...
i had a dream.
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Sunday, May 13, 2012
In summary, I graduated from poly, and is currently working as an admin in order to earn as much money as possible (money is never enough) so that I could fulfil my dream. Looking back at all those years, it seems to pass by so quickly (and I am getting old =C ) And so I graduated like that without knowing wat is the next step to take ... Well I am not the kind that would usually plan ahead for my life ... Well ... Even though I would love to ... As the saying goes if you fail to plan den you plan to fail. But oh well. My life currently is in a hell of a mess. It's in a so very depressing stage ... But ya... It will all get better in due time ...
At work, it is always about ranks. You higher position, I boot lick you. You lower position, you better make yourself useful to me. No wonder there is so many ppl trying desperately to climb that wobbling golden career ladder. It's a very very tiring rat race. And now I am caught in it, temporarily and it is draining my life away... I hardly have time to head out and play =( reach home and I will be so tired that I probably dun have any more energy left. Politics is all around ... In school you have to deal with it and den there is office politics as well ... It's so tiring to smile at ppl when deep down in your heart you just can't stop yourself from just giving the person a bitch slap across the face. Yep. Hypocrites. And the world is filled with that. (whoever spoils the market in the first place?) Sometimes, it's not that you don't know who they are, you just didn't want to expose them (It's as tiring as faking in front of them) in this way, the world will be a much better place... Actually, we are not very different from one another ... I gossip about you, you gossip about me ... In the end, you will just realize we are in a hell of a shit. It's hard to be a saint.
I miss you.
Hell lots.
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