ah !!! so many home work and tomolo is the dateline !!! on my god !!! seriously !!! i wanna take mc but my mum dun let me to take mc again ... she say dun always take mc ... i never always take mc mah ... just last time only ... haiz ... dun know lah ... if can i also dun wan ...
so yeasterday nite i work every thing out ... and planned that today at school going to finish codid ... and try to finish colour theory ... colour theory is today cannot finish, tomolo den can continue too ... because tomolo 5 pm is the dateline for the colout theory ... den 6 pm jiu need come home ... come home need finish design fund ... i got the whole nite to do ... need do the finals first den do some thumbnail ... if still got time go do codid painting of my hamster ... and story board ... oh my tian !!! time is running out le ... haiz ... today is another sleepless nite again ... i like 3 day never touch my anime le ... my darlings !!! my lovely animes ... i miss you lots ... lol ... just hang on for 2 more days and i will be there to vist you again okayz ? lol ... ya hor ... lata still need to find the audio for the visual audio ... oh my tian !!! really need to bang head on wall ... if my design fund f again den i dun know wan say wat already ... ah !!! dun care le ... bath bath den go school say ... if late another time on drawing, i will be dead ... lol ... bb =)
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Tuesday, July 29, 2008
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the post is purely for me to vent anger/stress... it's just a waste of time...
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
wah ... th stress and work to be done are like pilling high high ... it some how reach the point where by it doesn't matter if it is still going up high because it is already tat high ... lol ... see ... i too stressed up until i am like talking crap here ... i very very miss my sec school ... er ... sec school's CCA i mean ... lol ... i wan go back chinese dance ... really miss the times where we would get together and dance to the music ... even though the starting warm up is like torture, i dun mind ... i wanna go back to the times where we could laugh at each other's mistakes, getting scream by the teacher and the teacher make us dance till we drop down dead on the floor ... i wanna feel the pain that my body feel after so many days of training before SYF ... most of all, i wan to feel the excitement on the stage !!! i really miss the stage ... where we could dance to our heart desires ... where the music is blasted loud ... where we know tat the whole theater belongs to us, even though it is only for a few min ... where we hug each other and cry in happiness as we heard we gotten gold award ... really envy those times ... now, we where got time to do all ths ? we dun even get to have enough sleep ... and i doubt that i can finish my work in time ... oh crap ... time management is important ... and i dun have it at all !!! man ... got to finish my hw le ... cya =)
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Tuesday, July 22, 2008
today, we recieved even more projects !!! oh my tian !!! next week need hand in colour theory, codid, creative drawing, visual audio editing and more ... den we have our SEMI-BIG project-our PORTFOIO !!! tat's not all ... and here comes our BIG BIG project-studio project !!! i knew it !!! i knew studio project is different from portfolio ... portfolio is already very tough for me le ... min 10 of my best pieces ... out of which 5 can be from school work ... i do NOT have any best piece of work ... not to mention my school work which i get a big big F most of the time ... i really feel that my design fundimental is going to die ... flung it ... although farah tried to console me by saying that i have the bonus 5 marks, trying to give me some hope ... but deep in my heart i knew it ... i knew that the 5 marks don't help alot ... when i see miss amy shaking her head and dumping my work beside, i knew the answer/grades to my work ... i know it ... without her even saying it ... F ... tat's my grade ... GREAT ... now wat i got to do is to wait for next year to retain or change course ... really feel very bad ... i dun wanna waste my parents' hard earn money ... besides, i am the eldest ... my mum expectation of me is high ... i NEED to set a good role-model to my siblings ... now you know why i am so streesed up already ?!? man !!! i am going to sleep ... i ain't gonna care no more !!!
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Monday, July 21, 2008
STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED !!! one word to describe my feeling now ... STRESSED !!! haiz ... really ... i almost break down and cry in class today ... but i manage to fight back my tears ... yay ! cry baby xiiaodor finally manage to do it =) i wan cry not because i sad ... i wan cry because i am angry, angry and frustrated ... i wan to continue in this course ... i wan !!! but every thing is so tough !!! wat ever i do i cannot do it properly ... and i am like feeling really down through the weekends and as in really really down ... the thought of quiting have aready popped up in my mind many many times before ... but i decided to brush it all aside ... now, i am running out of determination, running out of patience ... really feel like screaming my lung out !!! really ... i dun wan to reach to the point where by i would care nothing ... if i really each that stage (which i did before) it will be very difficult to pick myself up and run the race again ... haiz ... depressed depressed depressed ... when will this feeling disappear ? even my mum and my tuition teacher knows that this course is not my cup of tea ... is it ? my mind is having a debate ... a long one ... and i really need a rest ... really ... i am tired, exhausted ... my strength is depleting, my will is fading ...
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Wednesday, July 16, 2008
wah !!! now is like 2.45 am le ... den i just done one thumbnail sketch ... cannot lah ... like tat till when de i can do finish my work ? i got like so many work to do lah ... den is like time is running out le ... some more no mood ... but still must do mah ... but no mood do already all the drawings are like not nice at all de lor ... your mood will affect your drawings ... that true ... but for my case it is greatly affected lor ... oh my tian ... my drawings are like ... le den now stil dun have the mood ... like tat the drawings is like even more ... lor ... sianz ... cannot sleep le ... must jia you wor !!! ganbate dorothy !!! you can do it and you always did =) 40.5 hours more jiu can rest le =) den jiu can slep the whole day to make up for the sleep that i have losed ... i really need to sleep sia ... and my drappery i think will get F ... but ifi do any mre things to it hor, i think the whole paper will like tear lah ... lol ... so i decided not to do any more things to it le ... lol ... my butterfly how ? haiz ... really time consuming sia ... tired tired tired ... i MUSN'T retain ... i MUSN'T slack !!! cannot already !!! do work do work do work !!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!! stressed stressed stressed ... work kept pilling up ... lol ... back to work ... must go back to work ... must ...
lol ... i really going crazy le ... really feel like taking a break ... looking forward to our vaction >.<
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Monday, July 14, 2008
finally finished my speech le !!! yay !!! during the presentation, i was very nervous and i speak too fast ... lol ... den every one was like slow down dorothy ! lol ... and today very funny ... morning we went to swim in school de swimming pool ... den after must effort, we get farah into the pool ... den farah dun know why, choose to go in the deep pool instead of the mid pool ... (btw, she didn't know how to swim) den she like almost drowned ... lucky of SK ... if not be prepared to say bye bye to farah and see her face big big as headline on newspaper... lol ... den when i ask her to move to middle pool, she like so happy when see realise that the water is only up to her hip level ... LOL ... den she was like down there screaming "yea ! i can touch the floor ... OMG!!!" =.="' how deep she expected the middle pool to be ? really dun know sia ... den today presentation, she wear heels den she walk like ... LOL !!! really very unlady like ... den i commented ... "when farah wear the heels together with the clothings, she looked stunning ... but once she walked, she looked like shit..." lol ... den farah was like going to kill me ... but too bad ... she wearing heels ... i figured den she will probably trip, fall and roll if she was going to catch me wearing heels ... lol ... i had such a fun time today ... =) really fun sia =)
kk ... miss universe here i come ... got chiou bu le ^^ very chiou wor !!! =x
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Friday, July 11, 2008
gee ... long time no blog le ... lol ... so, after our last min effort to put up the skit, we manage to pull off after all ... lol ... the outcome and the effect of the skit goes as wat we had plan ... our group really work well in last min attempt ... lol ... when we see the lecturers face, we laugh too ... cause they are also laughing till their face turned red ... lol ... at the end of every thing, we all agree that the whole thing was fun ... lol ... dispite all the small quarell that we had among ourself, we made it through ... i am so proud of my group ^^ btw, my drawing class attendance get 85.6 % !!! less than 85% get kick out le ... OMG !!! i remember i never late for class ... but why dun have attendence ? or is i forget sign ? OMG !!! i dun wan kanna kick out you know ... den bernard say our course change system le ... so we won't get to retain but kick out ... haiz ... den my design class ... it's so bad that i get like Ds and Fs all the way ... haiz ... planning on doing my black square problem, my butterfly dotting, my skateboard and let her see on monday when i pass up my work ... that's the last thing that i must do and i can do ... haiz ... well, farah ... i agree with you that the course is really tough ... but we just got to keep trying ... we got to try very hard ... and you are not alone =) after all there is somebody lousier than you struggling (tat's me) and she still haven give up ... so you shouldn't to =) jia you !!!
kk ... got to go back school even though is sat ... haiz ... but at least it's fun =)
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Friday, July 4, 2008
today wake up so early ... den wait for the stupid bus ... so slow like wat sia ... lol ... den reach school only 7 ppl including me reached ... every body is like so pissed off ... cause every time organize meeting olway little ppl come nia ... den we from 10 wait till 12 ... only 9 ppl ... sianz ... den they say go home ... go there dun know for wat sia ... den i see yy face like wan to fight le ... so scary ... even melissa is also lossing her cool le ... till when can we settle this thing ? wen need perform le ... mon first rehearsal ... can we really make it ? i dun know ... i thought sec we not very united but at least each one of us know that we must do it ... so although not very willing but in the end still can manage to pull off ... this time lei ? can we pull off ? haiz ... den i still got so many home work to do ... need to redo so many things ... 3 F le ... i really got the feeling that i going to retain le lah ... haiz ... but i shall not lose heart ... i choose this road ... there is no looking back ... i shall continue to walk straight ahead ... regardless of how tough it might be ... i shall do it ... =) besides ... if every one can do it wh can't i ? for now, first thing is to headach about the portfolio first ... must at least do one during this weekend ... jiayou jiayou jiayou !!! hehehe ...
bye bye ~ see ya soon =)
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