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Thursday, August 19, 2010

and the day just ended like tat... with me all alone...


couldn't even study today ... totally no mood for tat ...






i didn't receive any message went you return home
you didn't even called me before you sleep
i didn't even hear your voice before the day ended
if i never call, i would have never heard your voice

why am i so petty about the little things?
why do i even care?
what am i looking forward for?

nothing.

today is our 15th month...

♥My Dreams♥* 9:33 AM
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Monday, August 16, 2010

ARGH!!! time is running out for me!!! totally not enough time le ... totally dun understand every thing!!! feel like burning my books ! hahahaha ... morning i when to play badminton with secondary school friends, den just now when to eat with my relatives and den slack at my aunt house and play with my 2 years old cousin ... soo cute !!! hahaha ... i wonder if i was like tat long long time ago ... hahaha ... and den here is the main thing ... i never study !!! ARGH !!! always say wan study but den always end up doing tons and tons of other things except studying ... hahaha ... and den i totally totally cannot study along yet cannot find any friends who will study together with me ... i just everyone just work best alone ... only i am the werid one ... or maybe studying with me will only be a burden ... who knows ... LOL ... tomolo going school to study with the girls ... haha ... miss them sia ... hahahhaha ...

just now is chinese valentine. and i spend it alone... hahaha ... i kinda expected it so it wasn't a big shock. but still a bit SIANZ i totally look forward to the steamboat on thursday =( everything was planned out properly... but you can't make it ... SIANZ ... and den talk to you halfway, you fall asleep on me as usual ... SIANZ ... maybe i should just go and sleep ... sleep through all these stuff ...




drowning.
in a whole heapful of problems.
struggling in life.

♥My Dreams♥* 10:12 AM
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

it's half way through my supposed "study break" but somehow, i just can't get in to the mood of studing ... when ever i say ok i start now, den i will end up doinf sth else and den say ok tomolo start ... always ... damn! and i just told myself tat i will say no to procrastinate ... haiz ... totally no self dicipline ... and den i am totally bored ... can sth pleasant happen to my life now ? someone just give me a surprise or something ? sianz ... if i continue to stay at home i will really turn crazy ... seriously! my home nothing but a good place to lost ur sanity!!! i am going insane!!! argh !!! haha ... i wanna go out!!! i wanna go out and play =( i wan i wan i wan =( but in the end i still can't ... dun know where to go and with whom ... haiz ... everyone is busy =( only i so free ... need to find sth to keep my occupied ... if not like so lonely seh ... if this is not study break i would have just run to work ... sian ... and i hate it when i have to study alone ... i dun wanna study alone ... can't study alone too ... will get distracted ... Zzz ... dun ask me to focus ... i wan to ... but i can't ... even if you dump me in a room with only my book and a pen, i can also get distracted after 30 min ... will end up playing with the book or the pen ... Zzz ... CMI ... totally CMI for academics ... how sia!!!









tipping toes. just to see how you are doing at the other side of the wall.

♥My Dreams♥* 8:07 AM
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Been thinking way too much, feeling too much emotions ... Everything seems so messed up ... I wanted to rely on someone badly ... Just to gety away from my problems for a little while ... Perhaps maybe, out of this depressing period, there would be tat someone who would bring me happiness and be my shelter ... There is too much mixed feeling ... Stuff tat I dun understand ... Stuff tat I want to do yet cannot do ... Stuff tat I wish to do yet do not wish to do ... Too much thoughts, too much contradiction ... I am confused ... Which way should I go? where would it lead me to? Will I end up in the place I dread most ? Or am I just running in circles ? Too much stuff in my head ... It just kept going on and on ... Stuff which can't even be pit into words ... Stuff tat bothers me so much ... I dun even know wat to say or where to begin with ... I seem to be like an expert solving ppl problems ... But when it comes to my problem, I can't do a Thing about it ... This suxs... Some is I know what I need to do ... But I can't do it ... Some is I totally have no clue on how to go about handling it ... I am in a dilemma ... A huge pinch ... Problems just comes one follow by the another and somehow, I feel myself buried under all these ... Oh god, save me!






Sometime u put a wall up not to keep people out but to find out who cares enough to break it down.

♥My Dreams♥* 9:51 AM
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Thursday, August 5, 2010

ARGH! it's so bpred at home ... and i am so sick!!! does anyone have any super effective medicine that will help me get better by tomolo ? i dun wanna go to YOG rehearsal with a sore throat ... i wanna scream, shout, play and get high! hahahahahahaha ... so looking forward to it ... or maybe just looking forward to the day where i could just get out of my house to play ... and den because i am suppose to get well better by tomolo, i have to be in the bed whole dar =( cannot play ... if not tomolo mama is not gonna allow me to go for the YOG rehearsal de ... until now den can play because she went for some taiji dinner celebration at malaysia ... she will be home late ^^ I AM HUNGRY! lol ... random ... my house dun really have good food =( looking forward to BBQ on sunday!!! (my bestie house warming) yayayayayay!!! haha ... so to my throat, please get well by tonite XD

♥My Dreams♥* 3:18 AM
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