today very early jiu wake up le ... first thing i do is to check for his message ... i did recieved his message ... but the pain in my heart didn't seem to ease ... i dun know why ... really feel like crying ... yesterday i told him to call me after he finish play ... i did recieved his call ... i thought every thing would be alright now ... but who knows ...
he: you login aready ?
me:ya
he:ok... i going out to play soccer with my friends...
me:*haiz* bye bye...
he:bye *hung up*
should i be angry ? should i be sad ? i really don't know what to do ... all i did was to curl up in my bed and cry ... waiting for his call ... i waited till 10 pm ... no sign of his news ... den my mum took my hp away ... forget it ... that moment i really thought he dun wish to care about me any more ... even though this morning i recieved his apologies messages, i cannot bring my self to stop thinking about wat he said to me yesterday ... i very much wan to forget it ... why ? why can't i ? i really feel hurted ...
T.T
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haiz ... just now have a tiff with my bf ... he say i suddenly lose my temper ... when did i lose my temper ? i didn't scold him anything ... he said he dun wan to care about me ... den i remain silent ... he never talk to me like this before de ... den after that he give me the irritated tone ... haiz ... den he said wa lao ... he knows i dun like ppl to say that ... and i always tell him stop using those language ... he did change ... although he some time still say it when he is playing games with his friends ... but i just kept quiet ... but now ? he is using it at me ! wat happen ? he is now playing games too ... everytime play games, he will get very aggitated ... it's just a game ... haiz ... i really dun know wat to say ... i told him after he finish playing den call me ... guess wat he say ? he: "ok lah ok lah ok lah ..." me : "bye bye" ... he: *hung up* ... who got problem ? is it me ? i really dun understand ... i dun want to quarrel ... he really hurts me ... not first time le ... if he is reading this, he will say i dun understand ... and i never will ... i dun understand wat ? if i dun understand den just tell me straight forward to make me understand ... i really felt lost and hurt ... i dun wan to talk about this any more ... i just wan to rest and just forget ... maybe i will feel better ...
T.T
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
lol ... sians... now jobless for a long time le ... don't think wrong wor ... i not being fired ok ... lol ... i am just being informed that i will be jobless till early april den got work wor ... so sian ... den now also cannot go out cause my mum dun let ... haiz ... den always quarrel with me ... den i stay at home wat for ? quarrel with her meh ? stay at home will always quarrel de ... if i sleep den say i like pig always sleep ... den at her room watch tv den kanna chase out by my dad ... den continue watch my vcd at outside living room ... den my dad wan the vcd ... ok fine ... den i take the next vcd den watch half way den he wan again ... haiz ... if i play psp , den my bro and sis will keep looking ... den my mum will like keep saying i cannot play ... lata my bro will wan play also ... haiz ... den now 5 mins ago , i quarrel with her again ... why can't she just let me go out ? i am really very the wat now ... can i just go out ... den no need to fight aready wat ... if i continue to like tat i will get mentally unwell de ! i will be crazy de leh !!! sianz ... i really missed him ... but he is now with his friends ... now aready 11 ++ pm le ... he still haven contact me ... just now he say he going with his friend to see movie ... den after that say he wana play basket ball ... den till now also haven contact me ... haiz ... really feel very low now ...
btw i have a hamster le ...his name is ham ham ... lol ... ham ham ! i miss you ... lol ...
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Wednesday, March 5, 2008
hehe... i think i got 3 days never blog le ... lol ... because of work ... very busy ... lol... by the time i reach home is around 11 pm ++ le ... no time to use come ... T.T ... robinson having member sales ... lol ... but my there like not much ppl ... dun know why leh ... i thought every time got sales there will always be filled with ppl de ? maybe because got sales that time i always see alot of ppl ... lol ... den not use to it bah ... my work place very boring sia ... nothing to do ... i in charge of one wagon ... and always no ppl buy de ... ppl always buy goldlion shirts ... lol ... who ask them put the same price de together ? yesterday only sold to shirt ... and den i only can stand there do nothing ... sian ... my counter near the toy section ... lol ... makes me want to play ... lol ... really ... when one ppl bored till cannot aready, one will wan to do something to keep themselve occupied ... lol ... i got target le ... lol ... i wan buy 2 toy ... lol ... the moon sand and the pictionary ... looks so fun to play sia ... lol ... but very expensive de leh ... no money le ... now waiting for my pay to come ... wahahaha ... lol ...
btw , my goldfish died yesterday ... T.T ... poor goldie ... rest in peace =)
got to go work le ... bye bye =)
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Monday, March 3, 2008
aiyo ... today go work at raffles there ... every thing so high class and somemore very expense lei ! eat one meal den my 2 hour pay gone ... T.T ... den there got a lot of ang moh ... lol... den i see the ang mohs carrying their child like barbie doll like that ... lol ... the child eyes blue blue de ... very cute ... felt like pinching thir cheeks ... lol ... today work form 10 am to 6 pm ... by the time i going home, my legs aready very numb le ... T.T ... i guess after a few more days den i will get used to the long hours of standing bah ... lol ... at my work place i found another new friend ... lol ... that is one of the good things about changing your working place ... lol... you can meet many different types of ppl and customers ... and of course make different kinds of friends =) hehe ... this week no day off for me le ... tomolo onwards until sunday, i working afternoon shift ... from 2pm-10pm ... waah ... so late ...T.T ... today i work only need to take care of one wagon ... lol... tomolo go maybe will be different bah ... lol ... if not only take care of one wagon like very bored like that lei ... lol... maybe i use to take care pants le ... suddenly change become shirt very funny ... lol ... my counter is just nice at the centre of the floor ... den i become like the "information counter" jia lat ... i first day go den got a lot of customers as me where could they find blah blah blah ... lol ... i first day lei ... and never go there before ... den kept running to and fro checking the places ... lol ...
very late le ... i going sleep le ... bye bye =)
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Saturday, March 1, 2008
aiyo ... today just kana inform again i maybe i 4 week straight no have break le ... T.T sads ... lol... but the good thing is that i got more cash lah ... lol ... today i go work den i eat the yong dao foo ... den i put the tom yam soup den so spicy ... HOT ah !!! lol ... den i drink two cup of drinks ... lol... but dun know why i still very hungry lah ... lol... den i working till half way den the sale manager (i think so) ask me to help take care of the counter then i take a look ... wahh ... guy's brief ... lol... den i was like ... er... how am i going to serve ? "hello sir, wat size are you looking for ? we have got mini brief , sports brief and boxers ... and check out our new arriver ... our fast selling red hot boxers ... how about that ? " lol... so pai seh lei ... lol... den in the end i act blur ... lol...den never serve them ... lol... den today work got a customer come with a pair of my brand de pants den he ask why got a smelly smell after wash ... lol... i thought it was smelly ... but actually it was PUNGENT ... lol... really ... i almost vomited ... lol ... i dun know why it become like that lor ... den i found out that the pant they bought it for like a year already ... lol... den wat can i do ? it is like you no recipe den cannot change den you ask me den i not the one who manifacture the pants ... how i know ... lol... den tat pant is really smelly den we dun know need to put it where ... lol... cannot put inside cupbord lata contaminate the air ... lol... den cannot put inside store room lata whole room stink ... lol ...
yay ... i clear the 1st mission of my dj mix ... lol... hehe ...
T.T my bf still with his friends ... (i wan complain !) lol ... they go exscape ... lol ... i also wan ... but cannot ...T.T ... haiz ... now only got to wait for him to reach home then contact me ...
tata for now ... =)
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