STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED !!! one word to describe my feeling now ... STRESSED !!! haiz ... really ... i almost break down and cry in class today ... but i manage to fight back my tears ... yay ! cry baby xiiaodor finally manage to do it =) i wan cry not because i sad ... i wan cry because i am angry, angry and frustrated ... i wan to continue in this course ... i wan !!! but every thing is so tough !!! wat ever i do i cannot do it properly ... and i am like feeling really down through the weekends and as in really really down ... the thought of quiting have aready popped up in my mind many many times before ... but i decided to brush it all aside ... now, i am running out of determination, running out of patience ... really feel like screaming my lung out !!! really ... i dun wan to reach to the point where by i would care nothing ... if i really each that stage (which i did before) it will be very difficult to pick myself up and run the race again ... haiz ... depressed depressed depressed ... when will this feeling disappear ? even my mum and my tuition teacher knows that this course is not my cup of tea ... is it ? my mind is having a debate ... a long one ... and i really need a rest ... really ... i am tired, exhausted ... my strength is depleting, my will is fading ...
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