xiiador is having monday blues
monday is a tiring day
after school stay back to study but didn't manage to study much
was so tired that i could doze off any where
can't set my mind into study mood
and attempting to study at home is no good
my mum will pop in every now and den
bring food, water, fruits, scolding either my bro or sis
or simply just on tele and watch korea drama
and not forgetting my bed is just behind me
there is just so much distraction
and den she just now scolded me for coming home late
~
i was in school studying
and wat is wrong with that?
you can't teach me the things i dun know
i dun have a tutor
i dun even have a elder sibling tat can teach me stuff
on the contrary, i have to help out with my siblings stuff
i even thought that i could bring my friends home to study
but you are always spying on us
making us so uncomfortable
and you can smile smile in front of them but when they are gone
you make a 180 degree turn
i have always remain more of the daddy's, mummy's girl
(even thought i still quarrel with them occasionally)
but that doesn't mean that i dun mind
the early curfews
the surrendering of hand phone at nite
the cannot close bedroom door except when changing rule
and that is just one of the few "rules"
you said it was for my own good
as the saying goes,
one man medicine is another man's venom
how do you know it is good for me when you didn't even know my opinion on it ?
i dun deny that it work
sometimesbut that doesn't mean it works
everytimei am already deprive of many things
it is only recently that i started to go to places
further than compass point, hougang mall and heartland mall
and i had to go secretly
and i haven been to zoo and bird park without parents before
(except school trips)
never seen sun rise nor sun set
never get to see stars with my friends
(except last year pulau ubin camp)
never really know the transport system cause i seldom go out with friends
~
mama
you need to understand
that a bird in a cage would never fly far
and neither would it strive in the wild
mama
you need to see
that beautiful flowers bloom best in the harshest weather
and mama
i just want you to know
i love you
~
Be Mine
I'm delicately handing my heart to you,
In your caressing hands to forever keep.
I'm giving you the chance of destroying me,
And I know I'm in your love too deep.
I'm giving my entire self to you,
All of my mind, body, and soul.
Handing over to you my everything,
In hopes, you'll be the one to keep me whole.
I'm depending on your gentle and sweet love,
To get me through the tragic world each day.
I'm praying to God you'll always be here by my side,
And that's where you'll always be to stay.
Putting you over everyone else including myself,
You automatically go to the front of my line.
Which is why I'm delicately handing you my heart,
In hopes, you'll always and eternally, completely be mine.
-Face The W0rld
